:} You are my reason for any change that I would ever have the urge to create. You are the seed of all of my joy and tears. I find it my goal in day to day life to make you happy and satisfied with everything revolved around you. My only wish is for you to be happy. And I know that if you're as happy with me as I am with you then I have absolutely nothing to worry about, because baby you make me shine. You're my dedication, motivation, everything. I could sit here for days and go on and on about all your perfections and flaws that are perfect for me. I remember when I first realized that I was head over heels for you in a matter of just one day. Eighth grade. And then in ninth grade I finally got my dream come true, and here it is almost my sophomore year and my fantasy has become my paradise. I've opened up incredibly to you, showing my true colors and real insides. I trust you. I depend on you depending on me. Because you have to know that no matter what happens from here, I will always be here for you. I will always listen to you. And i will always have your back. I believe we've been through alot of shit but it's done nothing but make us stronger. So years from now if we are no longer you + me, I will forever and for always remember you and give so much credit to you for making my heart what it is today.
But isn't this nice? What I have to say about you is what every girl has to say about that boyfriend. But you aren't just my boyfriend baby! You are my boyfriend. You're my lover, my best friend, my companion for life the way it is.I have nothing but good to say about you, even the "bad" things about you. Which is nothing but one thing, and that's that you're stubborn and good at being a jerk. But that's you, and I love you and I have nothing but appreciation and true love for you.
Chance asked me a couple times if this is for real. If I feel like I'm in love with you, if I actually love you. And I'm too scared to answer him, because I'm scared to face what makes me vulnerable. And that is love for other people. And if today was my last day to breath, then I can stand here confindentally and answer, yes. This is for real. I am in love with you. And I know I love you. And I've never said that before to anyone, or anything. Not even to myself. But today I am, I did. And now my next step is reaching the momentum to tell you all of this. Because all I want is for you to be happy and to know and truley understand how much I care for you. I'd pull the trigger and jump in front of the bullet. You are my everything baby. I've done faced that and made it that way. I have no one left in life that I can depend on like I can with you.
So let's fight, let's throw punches and words, because I know it only brings us back to us. Everything will always bring us back to us.
I love you, Jordan.
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